I decide not to wake up.

Every day, every morning, every time.
Trying to keep my eyes close.
Trying to cover wholly body with my blanket.
Trying not to depart from my single bed.
Not draw myself out of my dreams.
Even last night i had a nightmare.

I mutter in annoyance.
Hate my coming days,
Afraid of my yesterday,
Ignore my tomorrow.
Give up on my day after tomorrow.

And i breath...... deeper, harder.
I close my eyes, utterly to calm my saddest soul.

I wake up, in slowest motion.
Last nightmare really makes me weak.
And I'm getting weaker, yet i long for reality.
I decide to wake up, learning my yesterday had elapsed.

God is kind, I know.
I still feel the air, I still see the sky.
I should be thankful, I realize.
I still have today.. for tomorrow.


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